Pointless to say much right now. Cuz' my still kinda depressed from the results. I have failed once again to failed to defend her from his sorrow she suffered 4 years ago. PSLE 199 is seriously shitty. I can still remembered that day I cried through the whole afternoon. And once again I allowed history to repeat itself. My source of my determination and power is from my parents, the more I see them suffer. The more I strive to work hard. My past is a another sad story.

So this is what happend, after receiving a farewells from the Meridian Seniors. We head back to our secondary school to collect our results. But I meet Shaun and Jon at Shaun's house to slack before we go together. After we reach outside the school's gate, the security guard allows Jon to enter to pay his school fees. Suprisingly, his name was pasted all over. 9 points. Wow top 4 students. Good for him I admit, I'm jealous.

Not long we knew our results, I expected mine not far from Jon. But who knows me and Si Qi are on the same boat, we scored the same and far from Jon. This is definitely the 3rd shocking thing I experience in my life. First was the death of my grandmother and my PSLE. Immediately, I knew my mother won't be impressed. This fear gripped me once again, unable to please my mother. Thats my worst fear.

For once me and Qi was left helpless and little choice to choose. Hope you feel better now Qi. But I've still try to go for MJC. I empathize Hairi, you were so close to reunitie with your MJ's friends. And right now I really want to too. All I can do is pray.

I still can't believe the effort and time I spend studying during that fucking period, is a total waste of time. How much can hardwork bring you too and the passion of a subject? Attitude? That is half correct too without a positive attitude, I would not have passed through so many challenges in my life. But to my mother once its not what she expects, theres no point explaining what went wrong! The more I achieve, the higher her expectations. This is bad when it hits me back when I'm unable to meet her expectations.

Neverless, I would like to thank the teachers and friends.
Ms Cheng
I would'nt have achieve excellence in Bio without you. The way you teach and explaining of the context and my lusst for the wonders of life is perfect chemistry.
Mrs Moreas & Mr Francis Teo
Moreas you gave us the skill. Mr Teo, you perfected and refined me to improve my english drastically. I am certainly satisfied with that.
Mr Sekhar
I'm sorry Mr Sekhar, to disappoint you. This results is definitely was unexpected and having sharing each other stories. I believe I can work harder.
Mrs Mani
The more I tease, the more you scold. That is how I learnt from you in A.maths. Without your strict guidance and would not have sharpened and refined for the TEST!
Mr Tan (A.Maths Tuition Teacher)
Mr. Tan I'm sorry to disappoint you too. To unable to acheive a higher excellence, I feel that I have left you down. Without your teachings, my a.maths would'nt have excelled.
Mr Yeo, Mrs Cho, Ms Audrey Tan
Mr Yeo your slow and cheerful teaching on chemistry for us was perfect. Our results soared and excelled in this subject. Sadly, you have to leave us early. Mrs Cho you continue to teach what Mr Yeo left behind and improve our practicals. Ms Audrey Tan you finally shaped and perfected us to the Cheminators now.
Mrs Lee
You just made a boring subject turn into life when you teach Physics. How all the non-living electricity and theories that we taught was absorbed clearly by us and to apply from what we learnt from you.
Lastly, Ms Tan and Mr Foo.
Seriously, I feel I have TOTALLY let you down on this one. after 2 goddamn years of trying to improve this damn subject and just when I taught it finally improved during Prelims. It plummeted, this is utter bullshit. I seriously do not know what to do about it even though especially me, Qi and Ruwan spent so much time doing notes for SS etc and discussing Geog. BULLSHIT MAN!
Neverless you guys just did what you are suppose to do and I truly appreciate what you have done for us. Too bad there is nothing we can do for now.